Anti-Poetic

There is no nice way to tell this story.. it is about a drug addict .. her and her constant need to get off chops. This story is cos i'm pissed off and will only be bare facts so that if a certain somebody crosses the line it will go public not that anyone would even care but her ex's may not like the story.

Hope Halliday was brought back into my life just after she's given birth to her second child bryce. At first i thought she had the perfect life with nick. She had everything she wanted, plenty of money, nice home, perfect partner and addorable child. What more could you want right??

Apparently a lot more cos as i found out later she was leading a double life.. Nick was one week on and one week off and when she would drop him off at the air-port on the way back she'd pick up her other man Tony and go on a week long drug binge. None of us ever saw this side though until later.

The very first time i decided to go out with her and Nick i was persuaded to get on the gear with them.. Nick racked me up a line on the ensuite table and we went to dusk.. It wasn't gear at all, it was crushed up pill i know my drugs and i'm not stupid. I have very vague recollections of the night but hope took my phone so i didn't have my centre of balance and when i got it back in the morning i called burnsy repeatedly till he came round with cones.. Yay for burnz always there throught the hard times.

After that i hung round with Hope a bit during the days cos she wasn't working but this girl was crazy she was having buckets in the middle of the day while her kid was inside .. don't get me wrong i got stoned too but my baby was safely tucked up at home with grandma.

As time progressed i saw many things happen.

This little drug bitch would go between tony and nick as often as she changed her underwear dependant on who had the money at the time and where the good drugs were.

Remember looking after my son on my birthday nick thats because hope had planned to go home with rj that night cos at the time she was fucking him at any opportunity she could get her hands on.

How about we bring up Rosco.. the guy she fucked the first time she met.. Rosco is great i've given him heaps of pussy over the years.. all he had to do was give her a little bit of crack and she was in. She was at his beg and call as far as sex was concerned and he turned around told her to get fucked.. not keen. Yet the second he wanted to turn around and cop a root she obviously forgot her embarrassing rejection and hoped right back aboard the wagon.. Hello sweet heart do you just love being treated like a dirty whore or what??

I remember when you first started telling me it hurt after sex and would bleed etc etc but really did you have to tell me you'd contracted clamidia.. You dirty ass little bitch.. i would have been to ashamed to tell anyone of this indiscretion but you were straight out with it.. couldn't you tell that you made me sick CUNT!!!!

... You still think you left me and thats exactly the dumb ass bitch that you are honey.. couldn't you tell when i started ditching you everywhere that something was up??

Even as early as Arif when i first met him i started telling him how i was trying too loose you but you didn't get the hint.. You came between me and my best friend of forever you dirty little whore and i would love to one day stab you through the heart to put everyone out of their pain and suffering of having to know you. POOR THEM.. their life is worse of just for having you in it and deep down inside you know it which is why your own mother won't even give you the time of day.. she is indebited to the world for having made you be in it..

Ok i'm getting off track here but no one is really gonna care anyways cos that would mean they would first have to care about you..

Fuck i better tell tony.. Tony the whole time she was with you she was constantly seeing nick among other people and she would just suck up to him for money everytime you were on again off again she was back with him.. as for did she move on after.. yes several times with several different people

and Nick well she was cheating on you the whole time anyways but yes with more than just tony.. didn't you see the writing on the wall when she had to get a dna test cos she didn't even know who the father of her own child was and the only reason you even found out was because she was constantly doing drugs around your child to the point that dcp took him off you both for 6 months.

And a Hope.. ever going to go see Tyler again your first born.. cos Gavin has said you can go over there.. but obviously your life is a lot more important than that of your child. how long has it been since you've seen him now.. a year/?

You used to profess to me that you were the best mother ever cos you'd been doing it for four years.. but you were hopeless at it hope.. still are, coming over to my house cos you wanted to kill your son and having me look after him and you for god only knows how long?? .. Guess its not your fault you wound up living with a whore.. but hey atleast she actually gets paid for services that people like you would provide for free knowing that no one would pay for it hey.

Do you know how badly i wanted to hurt you when you smacked my son you had no fucking right just because you believe in physical punishment doesn't mean that everyone else does.. Your so lucky that i didn't tell Darren you did it more than once cos he already wanted to smash you after the first time i told him.. He is in no way a woman basher.. but you are no woman at all.. you are as matthew said all those years ago a FUCKING WILDERBEAST!!!! You wonder why darren didn't take you on his bike .. he was scared he would catch rabies, the second i told him you got sacked he was absolutely thrilled telling me it was the best decision i had ever made.

Poor poor nick i feel so sorry for him in all of this.. have you told him yet that you sell him straight chop when he is chasing gear?? far out just so you can have the less chopped stuff. Absolutely appalling taking his money and giving him some msn/salt.. but i guess you never told him that then hey??

So how did Bryce really get hurt hope.. 9-11 bruises in places they should not be isn't exactly the sort of thing that you would go round telling people.. but maybe if i tell Tony about the exact details of all your indiscretions towards him.. He may be able to enlighten us as to what really happened hey.

I have written over a thousand words and i haven't even come too me yet.. Calling me a fucking dunb bitch cos i made you do everything for me.. Hello dumb bitch I'm a fucking lazy CUNT.. why do something for myself when i can have you do it for me.. remember getting that whole can of red bull when it exploded while you were opening it.. That was cos krissy was too lazy to do it and imagine had i have done it myself... i would have got red bull all over myself wouldn't i???

Have you any idea why i bought you toys hope.. and no it wasn't too satisfy you, it was cos i felt sorry for the poor guys you were coersing into bed you disease spreading whore

Blondie doesn't get it.

yesterday
Blondie's Statuys
Blondie is pissed off that people you expect are friends dog you behind your back and you find out through family how fuckn nice who needs them type of people. 7:48pm - 3 comments

Me at 10:08am October 1
Maybe certain people care about you and are seriously worried and don't know what they can do babe.

Blondie at 9:22pm October 1
na that was towards gareth and renee being fucks all good im pulling through my own shit and dont need them

Me at 9:40pm October 1
Just remember their probably going through quite a bit of stress atm.. dont be too hard on them.. You be good anyways sounds like your very happy.

Ok now this is how much of a dumb bitch she is.. i was the one who told her family she did drugs and stuff.. and i was the first person to fess up on her profile and she still doesn't get that i'm setting out to piss her off..

Ok i slept with her boyfriend (after they broke up for 1 day but only cos he was nice and i knew that she'd be with someone else within a week).. We kicked her out of the pub.. and now i have told her family about every little thing she does and she still doesnt get it.

The Evil no teethed monster - part I

Imagine the most disgraceful person in the whole entire universe... and then think worst.. This evil moster of a girl is of a different breed. I first met her when i was younger and my original instinct was to hate her.. why didn't i just stick to that.. We had a mutural friend who used to bitch about each of us too eachother. Until one fatal night off chops in the middle of a club we became friends. Less than a week later after a two day weed smoking sesssion.. The beast from the east or as my friend later named her 'The Wilderbeast' Rocked up on my door step pleading for a place to stay. I felt sorry for her and went to escort her into the spare room .. by the time i got there and turned around dhe was already taking over my very own bedroom - oh the shame of it all. I went out that night while she stayed at my house and when i came home i slept on the couch cos i just didn't want to risk infection.

After a few days of sleeping on a couch and getting a very sore back i kicked her out and for a few years i was safe.

A few years later i was in a very fragile state when i ran into the wilderbeast at the local shops.. she was with a farmiluar face i'd known just about too give birth to a second poor unfortunate creature.. why digits came out i will never know, but by then i had forgotten the problems of the past.

About a month later spawn in tow 'The Wilderbeast' came to my birthday brunch... But she seemed changed different more mature.. more looked after so i decided to accept her back into my life. What a mistake to have made.

What part of your not fucking listening to people not understand???

Why do people not listen. I just had someone blow their top at me for ruining a night they had apparenty organised for me.. now i was upset about a bout of upsetting and stressful circumstances .. i then organised plans with someone to which they cancelled then re-organised plans for somewhere i didn't wanna go too.. I was made to catch public transport there with no lift home.. yet i'm now getting told i ruined a night completely organised for me... Far out .. Fuck it .. I am a free agent if i went out with people i would stick with them.. but if im gonna go out by myself who am i really with???

I want to kill blondie - part I

Ever had that one person that just digs at your skin more then anyone else?? That stupid dumb bitch that can't handle her drinks or drugs. The one that thinks its ok too talk about every guy she has hooked up with right in front of her boyfriend.. or talk about sexual encounters with the one that has stolen your heart. Well it was about time blondie learned her lesson. After 8 years of this girl being in our group i decided it has to stop and i am now plotting against setting out too hurt her. But i can't do this in any obvious ways, shapes or forms as i am still close to her family and would like to remain that way.

The Sacred art of seduction.

There may be many reason's why somebody wants to seduce someone.. You may just want to screw their brains out, you may want them to be in a relationship with you, you may do it to make someone upset or jealous.. no matter what the reason.. You have to be good at it.. Me for instance i choose not to be direct for undirectfully talk about explicitt things.. and then there are visuals, what warm blooded man wouldn't enjoy watching two girls make-out and play with eachother. I've tried to seduce someone in all of these different ways but now i want more. Don't get me wrong i don't want a relationship or anything like that.. but i am looking for someone who willing to experiment.. with each-other, with toys and with others. This person i believe is already in existance in my life but i could be wrong about them.. absolute chick magnet though.. i think he could pull some hotties for group sex. Problem is impending meeting up on friday i'm not quite sure what is going to happen.. I would like very much too jump straight into bed but that would leave no challenge and no teasing whatsoever.. i would like to see him on friday, but i think if it's a purely sexual thing i may cancel.. however i could place a test.. say i am out-of-order on the night and see how much he squirms to get out of the arrangements of which at this point i am unsure what they are. I've been looking for someone for so long to go out and prey on woman with but i was thinking i'd have to find a bi girl to do that.. not get a hot guy hehe. I think i just want some more seduction to take place first... a whole lot of seduction could be nice also.

Deceit - a girl story

Sunnie is very confused as too how girls operate, they are much harder to understand then boys.. I just want a pretty girl to play around with and seemingly the only ones willing to play have boyfriends or their mingers. If only i wasn't so obsessed with boobs then their may be no attraction to the same sex whatsoever.. Unfortunately for me they have boobs and I love Boobs, I love looking at them, squeezinf them, touching them softly, touching them rougly, Tasting them, Teasing them... Ok so dont get me started on the whole boobs thing. So back to girls how come its so hard to find a genuine one who is caring.. who doesn't think the whole world revolves around her. If she happens to be experimental that is only a bonus.

Frantic Friday - part II

By the time i got to the pub my friends were telling me they were worried sick.. it just felt a little bit late for that.. I got myself a great position at the bar .. and the girl behind the bar was so good looking i didn't want to leave.. I decided to drink shots this night.. something new for me. I made her choose the shots Apple Cinnamon of some description was my favourite.. Then i saw my so called ex's flat mate also working behind the bar and krissy.. Did NOT put the moves on him but was quite happy to pash him in front of the ex.. I had been waiting over a year for that situation to fall into my lap i wasn't gonna miss out. I Accidently left my jacket so there would be another opportunity too see him and after countless shots and avoiding my friends all night and just buying them drinks everytime they came up to the bar to talk and sending them on their merry way.. i grabbed a taxi and left to go home to my bed and my toys.

Frantic Friday

Ok so friday was a bit of a night for me.. I felt really left out from my friends and after recently firing my best friend i didn't really need that. So i decided to go to the pub up the road and chill with some randoms and have a few drinks.. 1 girl and two boys usually i like the numbers to go the other way but with me being added it was even .. I think the girl there felt a little threatened by me she must have been ten years older and was cracking onto one of the boys also having come out alone.. so i can see why... By the time i looked at my phone i had 14 missed phone calls and 7 messages.. so maybe they actually did care.. so i wrapped things up at that pub.

Not a diary

This is not going to be always a blog of what i am currently doing but also of experiences i have had in the past... i'm 24 AArrrrgggghhhh it feels like most of the fun times should be over already but i'm hoping to keep going with them anyways. I've recently realised i'm not ready to settle down and have no intensions to do so.